Rain Lilies
Lamenting on life in lockdown
Sitting around
mending my old ways
monotony and the constant lull
daily trepidation;
a repetition
uncomfortable. absolute. stillness.
as I stare out of my cage
for a glimpse of life
I’ve got a new mask to hide behind
better than all the others I’ve tried
weirdly connected virtually
still pretty vacant inside
brushed away like dusty expectations
but it’s alright because you know
from here on you must ascend alone
When the lights are off
and I’m in my bed
mask off but I’m not scared
I allow myself to feel
for I am allowed
a diffused disarray of distant dreams
in tomorrow's cloud
the sleep is light
the sun's already taken over
my bed feels larger than it used to be
and there’s plenty of space
for another face
Perspective too
cus death can happen in an instant
mother and father are older
the mirror doesn't tell me this
but i've aged too
the end of my 20's
spent trapped in a zoo
aimless efforts to fill up the day
I'd try to stay productive
but i can't find the time
when i have so much of it
That’s the thing with stunned stillness
elastic yet paralysing
like a gong struck into sudden dissonance
silence carries so much sound
when no one’s really around
a collective alienating daze
lifetimes have passed
in just ninety days
~ khos ~
Credits:
Video shot by Karan Khosla (@thekhos)
Edited by Amrit Ramakrishnan (@amritr_93)
Music composed by Zahaan Khan (@zanuski)
Layouts in black and white by Akshay Gite (@akshyasic)